Seeing the light
Do i really mean what i sing? I do. I seriously do. I do try to live them out too. However, it's back to the basics now.. I am ultimately a child of God and i'm not living out what is sung and written for the sake of Glenn but for the sake of God who has Glenn in mind.
I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back.
The cross before me, the world behind me, no turning back, no turning back.
Though none go with me, i still will follow, no turning back, no turning back.
I have totally disregarded all the words in this song just days before this. I have decided to follow myself, the world was before me and the cross abandoned and forgotten, when none went with me, i whined!
When will i change Lord? Of course anyone would wish to be zapped and all imperfections be removed from him/her at that very moment. How wonderful!
I'm writing this not to undo what was written before this post. I'm here to put down my testimony of a man who chose to travail and not run away. A life broken yet chosen. A child of God who got his identity back and returned to his Father a prodigal son, forgiven, embraced and re-instated.
Have you ever wondered how the prodigal son felt after he was accepted by the father? The immense guilt of squandering half of the father's inheritance, abandoning the family for the pursuit of folly and the fact that he wasn't stripped of anything he had once been. He was still given the ring of authority on his thumb! It must have felt terrible.
I wish i could be punished to "atone" for whatever's done. However, in God's kingdom, it's never that way. I shall NOT despise grace ever again. Help me to be meek in You, Lord. Knowing full well that meekness doesn't make me a cry-baby or a whining wreck but a firm yet gentle servant whose authority is that of Your child. A milestone and season You have redeemed me into that will mould me into who you want me to be. A breakthrough that will be tough but once again, nothing + God = everything. Let me start afresh once again... Though never perfect but always striving towards perfection; one that Your Son, Jesus Christ has demonstrated.