The best day
"It's divine that you're still alive. Kept alive and not in the force. God has a plan for you.. that's why you're still alive.", Jeff said and so did a few others.
Ted, you're gone. I'm numb. So are the rest who are dressed in black from your batch. My last contact with the "mysterious" people. I will never want to step into that wretched place ever again. Ever.
There are quite a lot of things i wanna say to you all. Really. That God loves you. That I love you all too. That i miss all of you. But i can't now! I can't! Because of you, i have learnt not to cry. Now, because of you, i have learnt to cry. It's so weird to cry now, Edward. You would understand if u were here yeah? Why can't i cry heartily nowadays? Is something wrong with me? Have i lost the ability to love? Yet i want to love. Even though loving means hurting.
I lost my senses for a while before i woke up to reality. Reality is, Glenn, they are gone. The truth is, you have to move on. The way is, God. No one else can help you in this. No one. All, except God. This is a bondage you have to allow God to break Glenn.
I just said, "Though none go with me, still i will follow" and, "Come what may.. Still, i will praise You Lord." And tada! See what the tongue can do.
"Restore me. I need Your mercy. Take me, to the place i used to be.
Use all the pain and the hurt. To do a greater work!
Restore me." - Anthony Evans
Live in me
Breathe in me
I no longer want to see myself in me
No more "I"
No more what i want.
Show me what You want, Lord.
I have lost everything in pursuit of You.
Yet gained everything and more.
Rejoice, rejoice
And again i say, "Rejoice!"
How did You even start to love me Lord? Knowing that in all things, i would hurt You? How great is Your love. No other love can compare. There won't be any other love i would wanna go after.