Realization
As i sat in the toilet today singing praises to God, it dawned upon me how selfish i had been. I wanted to do the things that God has intended for me but at my own time. I have not spent enough time with Him. The past 2 days have been a community boost but a relational strain with God.
I have seen ministry being done during visitations and stuff. However, i did not spend time with Him. The person Himself. I have become a Martha and not a Mary.
I have also been jealous. Jealous of matters that do not even concern me or shouldn't even affect me. I've lost my cool and did not even turn to Him in times of dryness.
Oh Lord, simple questions of reflection like, "How has God been touching your life today?" and, "How have you been conversing with God?" would have resolved most of these thoughts.
Give us clean hands
Give us pure hearts
Let us not lift our souls to another
Have i lifted my soul to another?
One thing i do. Forgetting what lies behind, i forge ahead. Pressing on towards the prize of the upward call of Jesus Christ...
Remember Glenn, To live is Christ. To die is gain. Nothing else matters at all. For everything - God = nothing and nothing + God = Everything. Remember.
Help me O Lord, to focus on You. Not on my desires, not my ambitions, not what i can achieve but on You. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you. I thank You for teaching and guiding me always. Let me get my focus back on You my Father. You'll NEVER let me go. Though i may fail thousands of times, still, Your mercy remains. Lead me to do what You want me to do and never to do what You don't want me to. Love You Lord. In Jesus' Name, Amen.