I know You will
Tears streamed down my cheek as i looked back at the practice.
I'm disappointed. Utterly.. Absolutely disappointed..
I lifted it up to God immediately but it couldn't suppress
the emotions that were within..
No practice, no listening to mp3's... again..
No sense of responsibility..
No spiritual awareness..
I loved them, each, like another self.
I have relented so many times, leaving it to the band leads to jurisdict.
I have forced myself through sleepless nights to practice and model for them so
that no one could ever give the excuse that their days were busy because,
C'mon man! Check out my schedule first! If it's not enough, check our Jeff's or Pastor's... Tt's worse!
I felt so dropped.. So war-zoned.. So stoned.. So numb..
But God, You are faithful. You listen. You're gentle. You are gracious.
You will see us through.
Grant me wisdom and help me to lead.
I can never lead without you
Lift me up to the place where i no longer see these things from the ground
but from the perspective of Your shoulders.
I WILL succeed. Only in doing that which You have given me.
I know You will.