Just another day
Woke up early to send Aaron off for his NS today. It brought back some memories of my own but nevertheless, we accompanied him on this journey... It took several hours off my schedule though ^_^
Aaron's dad sent me back to office from choa chu kang and off to work i went. Met Pastor Reuben on the way and therein came the joke of the day. I can't reveal the joke about Pastor here but trust me, it was fantastic ^_^
Had a good lunch with Pastor, Allan and Cai Ying and we shared some thoughts! However, i felt a little discouraged. In fact, not a little. Quite discouraged. I was momentarily lost. My mind went blank. All the plans left my head and nothing re-surfaced. I felt like an old man with senile dementia.
I started to work on some plans for W&M and Communications... Then tears streamed down (in office somemore! Crap!) naturally but profusely. What am i doing here? I still had the peace of God with me but i just couldn't help but feel helpless. Yet, at the same time, i know that when i'm totally helpless, that's when i would totally depend on God.
when will we ever be appreciated for what we've done? (Never) So, we just have to tread on and press on no matter what. The fruits are just but a result. Obedience is key and more important than anything else! The rest are just peripheral and secondary.
I wish i could be dead to my feelings. So that i can totally obey without hesitation and without a doubt. Oh Lord, help me to trust in You. Be with me always... I love You Lord. I lift my voice to You in adoration!
I hear the Lord say,
"I'm not a man
I cannot lie
I know the plans
for your life!
I'm asking you
to dream again
believe again...
Take the limits off Me...
Oh, I'm not a man, no..
I cannot lie
See the plans I have for you,
They're my design!
So, I'm asking you.
Just to hope again...
And trust again...
Take the limits off Me..
Take the limits off Me
Take the limits off Me!
Release Me!
To accomplish what I promised you!
Take the limits off Me
Take the limits off Me
Release Me
Release Me
No limits!
No boundaries!
I see increase!
All around me!
Stretch forth!
Break forth!
Release Me!
Enlarge My territory!"
What You have promised, i hold unto them close to my heart. Yet, they are also the very things that shatter that which encloses them. So, i lift the broken pieces to You.
"A broken spirit and a contrite heart,
You will not despise.
You will not despise.
You desire truth in the inward parts.
A broken spirit and a contrite heart.
Lord, my heart..
Is prone to wander.
Prone to leave the God i love.
Here's my heart,
Lord take it and seal it.
Seal it for, Your courts above."